Emerging from the Dark
Sometimes, it’s just hard to get over here and write.
I have all these plans for content and whatnot that sounds really good as I plot and plan them and then…. the energy is gone. I just can’t bring myself to write.
I think this is fairly common for a lot of creatives. So much of what we do is pushed by emotional space, and when our emotional space is depleted then there is nothing left to create with. We are simply there, trying to survive.
That’s where I’ve been for the past few months, regarding writing, regarding coming here. There’s seasons in motherhood that are especially challenging. We tend to assume it’s the teenage years, or terrible twos, or learning to navigate a newborn. For me, it’s been the unexpected challenges. The moments when I have to show my children grace under extreme fire. When they have to learn that going through adversity can be so dang hard in the moment, but in the end you’re stronger. That’s where we have been.
I say it often, but one of my favorite podcasts is the one by Bishop Rob Wright of the Diocese of Atlanta (Episcopal). His most recent episode was about the power of the Book of Job. Job sounds super simple on the surface- going through absolute hell and having faith throughout. But it’s not really that simple. And it’s not that simple for so many of us. True faith lies in realizing that our time of trial(s) will last however long they might- and keeping the faith even when we cannot see the light or have a guarantee that it will come back. That’s the truth of Job.
I feel like the light is coming… it’s just over that horizon. There’s SO many good changes coming in our world- we just reached the one year anniversary of my relationship with my guy, someone who has been there through all of these hard times. Someone who is an example of a Godly man, who loves me and my kiddos even with everything going on.
Someday soon I can share our good news with each of you- but for the moment, I pray that each of you is in the light as well. And if you aren’t, that it’s coming soon.
Some verses/quotes that help me in those moment of heavy trial, in case you should need them (with links to sources):
